Six weeks old today...

At Lorenzo's checkup today he weight 11lbs, 3 ounces, and he is 23 1/2 inches long. His Pediatrician thinks he is improving by been more active, alert, holding his head for a few seconds and moving his head towards voice, he is responding to light and sound... His lower body feels more toned that his upper body, something we already knew, he is grabbing stronger with this hands, but the trunk of this body still is very low tone... She described Lorenzo to me like a tree, still got roots & leaves, but the trunk of the tree needs to be strong enough to support it.... So yes, it killed me inside.... we talked about our future appointments, cardiologist is coming up this thursday, Neurologist & Genetics, in May... She doesn't want me to wait any longer on sooner start for physical therapy, she's referring me to a private physical therapist, ASAP... we are aware that our insurance won't cover all of this, so i am hoping is not more than we can chew right now, our medical expenses are getting off the roof... she recommended for us to use both private & the sooner care people at home, if they ever decide to show up... In a more personal aspect she recommend it for me to include & get a little help with Lorenzo, support for appointments, bath time, etc... she thinks i'm consumed by all of this, by been non stop with him, alone soaking all of this & i know she is right, but how can you? my life was already a nut house, so you can imagine now... I get the impression my next 6 months are going to be pretty insane and guess what is around the corner? SUMMER!! and yes I love summer, but the thought of four kids at home but no place to go, and non stop doctor visits is freaking me out a little... Did i mention no flying for Lorenzo till he is 6 months... (a bitter sweet for me, because i can't wait to go home, my soul literally aches)... but as least we can drive somewhere... that is also something she recommended to spend time as a family, doing fun things to keep our stress a little in the low side.. she believes this stress and anxiety is hurting the other kids too... so lets work on keeping it together, better said than done, right?...